Nudity! "The Natural State of Man"
This blog is definitely meant to be read by men and only men. I am not exactly sure where to start, but I always knew I had the "urge" to be with men, as early as five or six, when two boys on neighboring farms would take me to this isolated swimming hole and wanted to jack off. So these older boys were 11 and 12 and already had pubes and could cum. They taught me the pleasures of jacking off so they could do it too when we all went swimming after working on the farm.
I know I looked up to these older friends. They weren't perverted, they were just horny. As they grew into men they were both very handsome, heterosexual and successful. They both married and raised family and I assume lived relative happy lives and are still married to the same women to this day. Do they still "bone up" around other naked men, I am not sure, but I know I do. For me, in every close friendship in my life their was a sexual component.
I played sports in high school and I know I loved my best friend Steve, who was the school sports star. He use to sleep over at night in a double bed on my family farm with me...I know now that I loved him. However, I never acted on the sexual urges that I had for him, though.
When I got to college my college roommate had been All State in basketball in high school and was the captain of the college basketball team our senior year. He initiated sex with me, when we first started living together in our sophomore year and we ended up having anal intercourse . I use to fuck him. (Just to be clear about what was happening) He was dating his high school sweetheart and as I was mine. I loved him so, he was my best man and I his. We both married within the year following graduation. That was during those times when the word queer was thrown around, we didn't even know any other meaning the word gay then.
My sexual philosophy!
I have been divorced now for twelve years this month. I have developed very strong views of how gay sexual and love relationships work in those nine years living as a gay man. A lot of men, who have been out and in the gay world a long time, take issue with my philosophy. I feel strongly that heterosexual and gay relationships develop very differently and much like this:
A Heterosexual relationship: friendship, dating, love, then sex usually after some commitment to the relationship.
A Gay relationship: Sex hookup (If hot sex), a friendship, love, then dating leading to a committed relationship.
**** The golden rule that all gay men should understand and expect to find happiness is that "no gay relationship is monogamous". If both partners say they are monogamous, at least one is lying. There is a difference between having M4M sex and cheating. Cheating for a gay man is only when there becomes an emotional attachment or love with the other man.
I had some very specific suggestions for the group "meetups." I really wanted the emphasis to be on making friends! So each member would be expected to greet all other members upon arrival and attempt to make some conversation with each member. Also, upon arrival each man was to strip naked because nudity at indoor sessions was not to be optional. All healthy men, gay or straight, were expected to have erections and they could feel free to masturbation at anytime when we were together as a group.
One of the problems for me in group sex or orgy sex is the often unwanted touching of some men by others in the group. So the touching of another guy was to be done only after an understood invitation and never based on an assumption. What I wanted most for the group's members was to eventually find some friends to spend time with outside of the group sessions. The goal was to find close and trusted friends, and to develop friendships that went beyond the casual " Fuck Buddy" relationship.
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E+: Can you tell us about you, your musical career and important achievements?
Thank you very much! I am 20 years old, I was born in Belarus, but I have been working and living in Ukraine for the past 5 years. When I was 16, I came to participate in the X – Factor Ukraine, after that, I signed a contract, and decided to stay in this wonderful country. At the X-Factor I placed 3-rd, and then, after this project , a completely different life had started for me. I managed to win another TV project, give a lot of solo concerts. Now I’m performing on tours, work on my music videos, recording new songs.
E+: What impelled you to take part in “Ukraine Eurovision Song Contest 2016”?
Eurovision Song Contest is my childhood dream. From very early age I imagined myself on the stage of this incredible Song Contest. Since I was 9 I did not miss a single year! I am a real Eurofan! I had always felt that one day I’ll find myself at that stage. I hope this year my dreams come true.
E+: How did you feel when you knew you had qualified for the semi-final? Did you expect it?
I was very hoping that I will make into the national selection. When I got a call and I was told that I am one of the 18 semifinalists, I jumped with joy, and people around me did not understand what was happening. But I didn’t care, I felt, that I am getting closer to my dream.
E+: What it would mean for you to represent Ukraine?
It Is the country of my ancestors, my mother and grandmother were born in Ukraine. When I moved here, I had a feeling that this is my home. Here I start a very different life, here I began my “new story “. I don’t know where my destiny will have ahead for me, but I definitely know, that Ukraine always will have a special place in my heart.
E+: Can you tell us about your song? What is the story behind the lyrics?
The last two years were very difficult for my personal life. There were a lot of frustrations and obstacles. I always thought , that love will not overtake me soon, but it happened, unfortunately, not the same way, like in Hollywood films with the beautiful ending. I tried to fight for my love, but it was no success. Due to my personal drama, this song was born. After one very emotional day, I came to keyboard and start to write it. Music went from my soul.